Akshat Sinha

OM SAI RAAM,
My net connection was all concked out.. i could not write.. i felt rather incomplete.. this is getting addictive i suppose but the truth is that I AM LOVING IT! There are few people to whom i speak my heart out... honestly.. My life, its transition, my mind .. nobody knows about it.. its me and only me who knows.. Only one person is there to whom i can speak all i have in my heart.. in my mind and all the various other things but then time and means outplay me.. defeat me and i stay alone .. I feel, sometimes, that what have i earned so far in my life of 7000 odd days? .. nothing.. could not be a good student to make my parents proud or to do anything justify the sur name i got from my parents .."Sinha"... a family which had a Freedom fighter, President Of the Communist party .. Indian government's representative at the ILO.... Late Sri Ghanshyam Sharan Sinha, my grand father... a family which had A dedicated housewife who nurtured her 4 sons and 1 daughter alone when her husband was behind the bars during the Emergency days .. or when he was on his world tours for the party meetings... she is Smt. Savitri Ghanshyam Sinha, my grandmother.. \
What could i do? Nothing is the reply that echoes in my mind.. A life wasted till now..
Donno really whether what way my life is moving.. .. is it really moving or just crawling i presume...!
Baba(my grand father) has been an inspiration.. epitome of gentleness and honesty.. ! My Uncle's and Dadi tell me how he refused to join Late Mrs.Indira Gandhi after the 76' emergency just because he had dedicated hs life to the Trade Unions and its welfare. He was offered to Join the congress and a lucrative ministry was also offered .. but he refused.. Will i ever be able to do justice to his legacy? will i ever be able to give in even an iota of the dedication he had ?.. I doubt!
i recently read a book that was dedicated to my grandfather and it as fascinating... !
Sri Atal Bihari Vajpayee , Sri George fernandes,Sri Krishnamurthy(Ex-CEC),Sri V.P.Singh,Comrade Ram Asre,etc etc have been close friends and associates to my grandfather.. who left us on 4-4-94..

this post is dedicated to him.. to salute him and to get inspired..
Akshat!